Forgiveness

I look back on some of these past posts and I am saddened that I have lamented on so much and wasted what little time I have here on earth we these aimless ramblings. Alas, what can you do. I have been focusing a lot these past few months and weeks on this quote "life is about the journey not the destination." Isn't that the truth, how many times have I counted down to a vacation or a holiday only to be disappointed the actual day it occurs?

Today I have the ability to change this and make things different and gees I hope it sticks this time;). So here goes....

I am fallible I will never live up to my own ideas of perfection and that's okay. I want my children to see me fall and to see how I pick myself back up and get back in the game. I want to teach them that its not necessarily that you made a mistake but if you "manned up" and faced the consequences and accepted them. I have made foolish choices in my life and sometimes it took me more than once to learn the lesson, but that's okay, too.

I read this absolutely perfect passage that really helps me forgive myself for a lot of things. It basically states that we, as humans, have basic human needs and of course wants but needs are things that when, unfulfilled we tend to do anything possible to obtain, no matter what the costs may be. These are not excuses but people who never made any mistakes are very judgemental and tortured souls. So anyway here's the passage

"We all have emotional needs that need to be fulfilled.-to love and be loved, to have companionship, to feel that you are respected and to respect others. You need sympathy and compassion from others, and you need to express your own sympathy and compassion for them. When you do well you need recognition and appreciation and when you don't do well you need forgiveness and understanding. You need outlets for your sexual drive, a need that is both physical on the hormonal level and a quest for intimacy on the emotional level."

Although I don't necessarily think that the aforementioned piece is an excuse for hurting others it does allow for more forgiveness as we are all struggling to be the best that we can.